Happy New Year, Happy New Me!

Today I woke up feeling a void in me. We are down to the last 4 days of the year and it got me thinking whether this year's been a complete waste for me that's why I feel this way, or this year's been so exciting that it got me drained of feelings already. A couple of friends said I should just look forward to next year...which is arriving in less than a week. So, what could change by then? Why are we so hopeful every time a new year starts only to end up disappointed again at the end of it? Why can't we just feel that another year starting is just a continuance of our good life? How far are we from realizing that we don't need a new year to start or change something?

I have long resigned from creating a list of my new year's resolution. I don't really believe in it since there were already countless times that I have tried to re-create a new me at the start of the year and failed. Not that I did not improve, but I guess believing that you can become a better person at any part of the year works far better. What I am trying to say is that it's not bad to hope for a better year. But a new year is not what you need to make a better new you.

So, for those of you refreshing your hope level at every start of the year, you may want to start believing that you can do so any time. You don't need to wait for the first of every year, month, week, or day to start something new, to improve, to conquer. All you need is to realize that it's not the years that control you. It's you.